虚荣心的小小绽放

今天真的很不开心。
但这个小小的新闻却让我的内心偷偷的因为虚荣心小小的绽放了一下。

http://www.nyteknik.se/special/tekniska_hogskolor/article747787.ece

隆德大学再获荣誉，当选为瑞典人最想读的大学。前段时间隆德才刚刚被媒体表扬过，其各个系，各个专业都是响当当，拿得出手。从 http://www.kina.cc/ 上更是得知，申请国际传媒和企业管理这两个专业的门槛已经让人却步。实在不能不再次感谢命运的眷顾，让我有幸开阔了眼界，有机会和来自全世界各地的朋友们一起享受“头脑风暴/brainstorming ” 的过程。

感谢我生命中遇到过的同学、朋友们，有了你们，我的内心才会如此坚强，才可以在北欧这个寒冷的国度里继续坚持自己的梦想。旁观者的不理解，甚至是侮辱或者是一次次尝试的欺凌，都无法将我击垮，因为在我的内心，有一个丰富多彩的精神世界，那些因为有可信的可靠的朋友们的支撑而强大并丰富的世界，而那里，并不是每一个人都可以有幸到达。

怀念美丽的隆德。

如果有来生

The Road Not Taken/未选之路

瑞典本周气温，最低零下20摄氏度，最高零下6摄氏度。户外一片大雪纷飞；铲冰车工作的声音在寂静的深夜里声声入耳。时差还没有调整过来就又投入了紧张的工作当中；喧嚣而又爱意浓浓的春节气氛仍然弥漫于心，挥之不去。强烈的反差下，恍惚中甚至还无法分辨清楚自己究竟身在何方... ...
压力大时，总喜欢用英美文学课程上最喜欢的两段话作为激励的座右铭，而这几年中，这两段话也确总是我心中所想的最真实表达。
第一段出自美国当代诗人Robert Frost的“The Road Not Taken / 未选之路”；
...
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

也许多少年后在某个地方，
我将轻声叹息把往事回顾，
一片树林里分出两条路，
而我选了人迹更少的一条，
从此决定了我一生的道路。

而第二段则是我最为熟悉，大学毕业论文论辩之Transedentalism超验主义核心人物梭罗“瓦尔登湖”中的名言：
“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived..”

　　“我步入丛林，因为我希望生活得有意义，我希望活得深刻，并汲取生命中所有的精华。然后从中学习，以免让我在生命终结时，却发现自己从来没有活过。”

----- 一零年，初春三月，瑞典, 斯京 Karlaplan

Infinity goes in both directions

Angela: [...] I'm a little afraid that... I'm just afraid that I don't have a generous heart. I'm afraid that I won't have the chance that I had with Kirk ever again.

Brennan: You will.

Angela: How can you be so sure?

Brennan: Because nothing in this universe happens just once, Angela. Nothing. Infinity goes in both directions. There's no unique event, no singular moment.

"Confucius"

"Confucius" is definitely a good movie. However, it is not a movie that can be understood and appreciate by the mass majoriy, at least, not in China now.

It felt like that there was an air full of anxiety and eager to progess in China when I was back home this Feb; and it felt like that nobody can calm down. I probably have been in Sweden for too long, and get no familiar with that kind of strange passion anymore. I checked online, and not out of my expectation, the box ticket is actually very bad.

"The mass majority may understand the torture you (Confucius) have been suffering through, but cannot achieve the state where your (confucius') spirit has reached upto".

Next dream?!

It has been a year since the last update.

Lots have taken place, however, nowhere to start the writing and the random thoughts.

Different from being a student, or a teacher, I had to start to learn the reality of the real world in Stockholm since last July.

What to say? Comparing with lots schoolmates, I have been lucky enough to have a job I like and to stay in the county I like. The best part is that all the lost confidence gets back, slowly, but finally.

Once again, I made my dream come true. I have nothing to complain.

I wanted to be a university teacher and lived in a place close to Shanghai when I was 20;

I wanted to get one Master degree from a worldly top100 university in a Western country;

I wanted to experience the romance just like what I dreamed since I was a little girl;

I wanted to study something about business;

I wanted to have a job chance in Scandinavian country;

I wanted to take control over things at my work, as I always thought "I CAN DO IT";

I wanted to have my own apartment in central Stockholm city;

...

...

...

Luckily, I made all my dreams. I am full of gratitude to everything, and all the ones that have been in or out my life. It is the appearance of all of you that give more significances to the meaning of my life.

The meaning of life, is not how long a person can live, but how much glories and difficulties he experiences; glories bring him suprises and make his life more colorful; difficulties bring him experiences and make him stronger and tougher, and to appreciate things.